♡ About Me ♡

i'm addicted to all things girly; I truly enjoy socializing, reading & writing, scrapbooking & other arts & crafts, experimenting with hair and make up as I am obsessed with fashion/celeb magazines, YouTube beauty gurus, and lettings my creativity exhume me thru any means possible. im here to share my views, personal opinions, and situations i am going through along with a mix of latest news;; fashion, hair & make up ideas;; beauty tips & tricks;; vacations, creative ideas & DIY posts;; && just about people in today's society in general. i love to document every thing in my life to look back on it in the future. Self-Reflection is one of the best ways to progress in life!!

Friday, August 29, 2014

interesting life hacks xx

Hey lovelies!

OMG Has it been forever since I last posted. I am working on a post that will allow you all to catch up with me. SO much has been going on with me -- verry verry good stuff, and of course can't have the good without the verrrrry verrrrrrry bad stuff! So tune in for that within the next couple weeks. I wanted to quickly post this post as I came across it in my email and thought it was so fun and interesting, I just had to share with all of you! I hope you enjoy! ;)

Life Hacks!

I would use this idea in my bathroom for my blow dryer, straightener, curling iron, etc
It works perfectly for both I would have to say.




I have live in a small apartment and think this is just genius. I am so excited to try it as I have very limited counter space, and have a lot of kitchen items on my counters that take up room such as my blender, toaster, coffee maker, etc




I really wonder if this one here works. I am sure you have to have the exact grip and movement. I would probably be there for minutes trying to get it open haha






This is pretty known... news paper or paper towels.. or here's something --
EMPTY ALL LIQUODS PRIOR TO DISPOSING THEM. ;)





YES! I so need to do this as my Zippers go down to regularly because I wear my jeans so tight!






So this looks like it takes up a lot of room in your fridge, but it also holds quite a bit. It can be a good idea, but not one I am willing to try. 




This is a good idea; however I throw my tape rolls in my junk drawer, basement, etc and I could imagine what kind of dirt and dust that exposed sticky part would pick up. It isn't a big deal, but when you're a wuss like me-- id constantly be worried about spiders whenever I go to grab it lol





I actually use the hangers in the picture below this one to hold my boots up on the closet rack; however some times with my leather boots I will get an imprint of the clasp in my boots and that isn't good because it doesnt come out..



Who'da Thunk it!?



I already knew this one as well.. Some are pretty common-place. It works very well!




I am SUPER excited to try this one!! Those bottles are so sturdy and thick, theyd make for EXCELLENT cups. I am determined to do this this weekend!!



This is GENIUS! Some of these are kind of like, DUH moments. Why havent I thought of that!?





At work, this happened to me, and I actually used one of these prior to seeing this image, and it works great! I was bummed when I saw I wasn't the first one to think of doing it LOL






Not really sure if this one works or not.. I wouldnt think the sticky part is strong enough to grab onto all the dust. I will try it and let you all know though!





How cool is this one!? So neat and resourceful. Who needs a baby bath when you have this. Get a tub Pillow for the younger babies, and you're good to go!





I am excited to tell my Boyfriend this one for his yard!






This one below works great, but a lot of dirt and dust gets trapped on the velcro as well believe it or not.





When I worked at a pizza restaurant-- a lot of the drivers told me about this. Unfortunately people tend to order 2 liters and not smaller, so unless you had an empty small size bottle in your car... this wont really help.




My boyfriend uses this one below for his lunch. It works very good. My girl friend also puts sun screen lotion in it for the kids at the beach, easy application, and you wont over use.



I really want to try this one below... Can you imagine how good of a scrub that would get?
I'm a cleaning nut, so I get excited over this stuff! lol




This one below I already knew and used.. I use this for my Bullet & Blender






I am so using this idea very soon. This is so ideal as I am on my laptop for hours at a time, and sometimes my lap or table gets so hot I feel like I should turn my laptop off to give it a break. But when you have a lot to do, its almost impossible to do that. So here is a very good solution!





This works great! I tried it! Who would've thought!?



&& the one I found MOST helpful and am excited to try is ...


Thank you for reading guys and gals! I hope some of these help you out in your day to day lives just as they have me. If you know of any others, please let me know. I would be very happy to add them to the list!
Until then, take care and have yourselves a very amazing and safe Labor Day weekend. So sad Summer is almost over =[ I have to live it up these last few weeks, that is FOR SURE!!

Toodles!! *
 
Rica Marie 

Sunday, August 10, 2014

favorite items thus far xx

[UPDATED]*

hello beauties!!

I am posting a quick review of a few products i am loving, and so happy to recommend to all my beauties! please continue reading and let me know if any of you have tried any of these products, and what your opinion on each is! i hope all of you are doing well. i have been so busy with day to day life I have not even had time to get on my blog nor comment back to any of my lovely readers! ill get to it soon, i promise! <3


 Aveeno Shampoo, Conditioner, Body Wash, && Moisturizing Lotion set xx
 

I've always been a fan of Aveeno products -- their wide range of products at that. I wanted to review them because I am just so thoroughly satisfied with them. I've been really happy with how it moisturizes, but I now have a whole new appreciation for the product as it seriously makes my skin feels smooth all day. Their shampoo and conditioner moisturize great as well. However I will stick to my Redken products as those treat more than just dry hair.

 4 out of 5 smooches xx

 Bio Oil [PurCellin Oil] xx


 

 I  bought this because of all the buzz about it. It is quite expensive for the little bottle-- but that just told me it must really work! lol I have a number of stretch marks all over my thighs and ass and nothing else worked in clearing them up. I used this for a couple of months and I definitely notice a difference in my scars. It works very very well for that. A+. I will continue to use it and let you know my progress after 6+ months. my only issue is because the stretch marks on my ass and thighs, I cant sit down nor wear any clothing until it dries which can be a huge inconveniance at times.

3 our of 5 smooches xx 



 The Body Shop Shower Cream xx

I am obsessed with the smell of this SO much! I seriously spend a minute just smelling it. I cannot get enough of this fragrance line. After using the shower cream I follow up with the body lotion and body mist to make it last longer. The shower cream leaves me soft and smelling great even after drying off. The only downside is that the suds don't last too long so I have to use more than I would like. In this case, the bottle should be a little bigger. Other than that, it is a great product.

4 out of 5 smooches xx

 Viva La Juicy Perfume xx


I am just in love with this fantastic scent! Personally, the scent does not fade quickly and it is perfect for day and night. It is a very feminie scent and I am totally in love with it. Also,the bottle is very cute and looks great placed on a vanity, shelf, wherever. I would recommend it to everyone looking for a new fresh, feminine, scent. 


5 out of 5 smooches xx


Garniers Caffiene Eye Roll xx



Garniers new Caffeine Eye Roll on with a touch of concealer. My under-eyes are definitely one of my key problem areas and I like the fact this product not only conceals dark circles, but works to reduce them. Ive heard a good way of reducing discoloration around the eye area is to tap the skin around your eyes gently with your finger tips to stimulate the circulation, and I expect the roller ball on this product works in the same way.

I`ve been using it for a couple of weeks now, and have yet to notice big difference. I do, however, love the concealer touch as it makes me look more "awake" and "fresh" in the mornings when I haven`t had much sleep the night prior.

3 out of 5 smooches.

My New Chi Ionic Chameleon Hair Dryer xx




I went to Ulta, and came across a variety of ones--I seriously had no idea where to even start. I knew I wanted the ionic ones though. CHI also uses what`s called FAR Infrared technology. What this pretty much does is dries the hair from inside out due to its ionic charge. The negative ions produced by the CHI hair dryer diffuse water molecules into microfine particles improving moisture, balance and shine, reducing frizz, and eliminating static electricity. Thus leaving my hair super duper silky smooth.

I didn`t even go to my straightener afterwards becuse it was sooo smooth. Overall, I am thoroughy impressed with it. I`ve read a lot of reviews and some say they blow out on you within months. I hope that isn`t the case for me as I spent $179.99 on it!!

5 out of 5 smooches xx


Ed Hardy Hearts && Daggers Perfume xx



I am OBSESSED with Ed HARDY`s Hearts && Daggers perfume. I bought the combo with the body lotion with it as pictured above, and use it every single day.

I am not a big fan of Ed Hardy`s trashy clothing, but their perfumes are to.die.for. I have bought two different kinds this one and the born wild one, and both are uniquely different but still smell soo amazing and yummy!

If you`re looking for a new scent to kick start summer that is tangy, yummy, and sweet -- this is definitely the perfume for you. I get sooo many compliments every single day. One guy even smelled me from the McDonald`s drive thru window, and wanted to know what I was wearing so he can buy it for his girl friend!! LOL

5 out of 5 smooches xx


thanks for reading baby dolls! 

Rica x0x



Friday, March 21, 2014

Sex Toy Party

 hello  my lovely readers!!

Have you ever been to a sex toy party? Yes, you read that right. How many of you just blushed and made sure no one else was looking at your screen? ;) I know, I know.... Often times, when people hear this, they think one word… orgy!! As much as I would love to say I participated in an all-female-sex-a-thon, I did not. We sat around in a circle and watched the hostess demonstrate all of the products. There were pheromone enhanced bath bubbles, vanilla flavored lube, edible body shimmer, and just about every kind of vibrator known to (wo)man. Ever heard of the “Silky Stud”? How about the “Aquasaki”? Not only did I get my hands on all these things, but I also got a crash course in erotic massage and some wild sex positions. Oh, and I can’t forget to mention I won a prize for drawing the best looking penis with my eyes closed. Now there is something I can put on a resume someday. ;)

Basically sex toy parties are just silly fun for girls who are a little more on the adventurous side, which happens to be the only side I have. When the hostess brought The Rabbit out, I couldn’t help but grin. Next came The Mini Tongue, another stress reliever of mine... haha just keeeding. "Who needs a guy when you can just fire up the Hitachi Magic Wand?" said the party hostess. Of course nothing compares to real sex… real GOOD sex. The party hostess asked me if I had a vibrator or ever used one, unfortunately no i have not. I said "why have one, and waste money on one when i have my boyfriend right by my side ready to go?"

And her answer was amazing.

"Because there are about a million things that can go wrong when having sex with someone, I think it is important to have a “sure thing” sitting around just in case. "

Brilliant answer, right? It definitely got a few girls to bite the bait and buy one, but i did not. I only ended up spending about $75.00 at the sex toy party and not a single thing I bought required batteries or penetration... LOL. Instead, I opted for products I thought were very unique. 










Nipple Nibblers by Surprise Parties















Smoothie Massage Cream by Surprise Parties

























Pure Instinct Pheromone Cologne by Surprise Parties





Both lotions taste like candy and make my skin extremely soft. I tested out the pheromone cologne when i went to the bar the other day with my girl friend.. and I didn’t notice too much of a difference considering there are men all over us when we go out as it is.. lol I put spots of it on my chest, wrists, and neck and although it made me smell lovely, it didn’t seem to have an effect on any man. That’s OK though. I still love the scent and I am going to use it all the time.

I understand a lot of this stuff is just a total gimmick and there is some asshole out there making alot of money on the fact that women will buy anything to enhance certain aspects of their life. This is also OK.

Why? Because everything about life is a gimmick.

People tell you they are genuine and trustworthy but they just end up being a faded spot of perfume on your skin with a promise to do so much more than smell good. In saying this, I will take the chance with the sex appeal enhancement simply because I have nothing to lose. 

I will also take the chance in saying I am not the only girl out there that will admit she loves sex.

Pleasure should never be shameful ;-)

xoxo rica

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Incredible Bargain Shopper!

shoes xx

ok so it is a given that I love me some great 5” or higher heels.  && I spend pretty pennies to have them. But the thing with me is, though I do love just about every pair of to die for heels on bebe.com, the truth is they’re out of my price range. If I had the kind of money to throw around on the shoes i love-- that would complete my life on that site, I’d be a very happy girl! But, I don’t. && i accept that.

So I find other means. ;)

But once in a while, in a cruel almost auto-masochism routine, I torture myself by looking at net-a-porter.com or shopbop.com or as previously stated, bebe.com and adding pair after pair to my cart, never being able to actually “check out” in the end. But it feels good to pretend. And today while enduring the agony of ‘window shoe shopping’ on shopbop.com, I came across a familiar friend.

$310.00 for an awesome pair of Rock&Republic heels. They’re to die for. Black and gray suede, perfect heel height. I can almost see my little feeties in them now. But $310.00 for shoes?

Ouch. never will i spend that much $ on a pair of shoes.

but then it hit me.. i've seen these shoes before! Earlier today, in fact! && being the bargain shopper that I am, i am a fan of GoJane.com for shoe shopping. Amongst the plethora of God-awful shoes on that site, there is the often occasional gem. This familiar shoe was one of them.


Now, the differences here are obvious.

The quality of the shoe on the left is much better than that of the right. The materials used, the craftsmanship, the sheer look of it. But in all honesty, does that really matter? Sure, if I had the money, I’d prefer the Rock&Republic’s on the left.

But the wonderful thing about my keen eye for bargain shopping, is that the twin with the learning disability on the right is only $20.60. Sure, you get what you pay for. But I am too cheap to care. The great thing about this site as well, is that you can order these shoes in other colors! An option Rock&Republic does not offer. I see no difference in ordering righty over there.

Now what did i just do?

 saved myself $289.40 on one pair of shoes! 

That is my favorite thing about my bargain shoe shopping. what some people would spend on one pair, I can spend on seven or eight great new pairs of shoes. don’t even get me started on the prices of those Louboutins…..

xo rica

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

leibster blog award x2 xx


hey all my pretty ladies! i am here today to finally get around to posting my numerous Leibster Awards i have received from a couple different bloggers over the past month. my first award came from the lovely Kia at Cosmo Gloss  && my second award came from the beautiful Andrea at PHD Fashionista - so i will address her second in the post below. [[ go check their AMAZING blogs out now!! ]]


Rules:
1. Each nominee must mention and link back the person who nominated them.
2. Answer the 11 questions given to you by the nominator.
3. List 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 blogs who have less than 300 followers for this award.
5. Create 11 questions for your nominees to answer.
6. Inform your nominees that you have nominated them.

11 Facts about myself
1. i'm a high heel aficionado, lip gloss lover, and obsessed with having everything from my hair to my toes did at all times. I'm most definitely an extreme girly girl. i like to think i leave a bit of sparkle every where i go [[ && i don't let ANY ONE dull my sparkle.*]]

2. i am a total book worm. i always say i'll only read one or two chapters of a book & then i get comfortable on my bed and end up spending the entire day/night reading the entire book .. lol

3. my education is very important to me. i thirst for learning new things, and if school were free, i'd take all the classes available because knowledge is power, and i feel very good when i am able to initiate intelligent conversations.. that's the type of confidence every one should feel at least once.

4. creativity wants to burst at my seams. i'm a huge scrapbooker, even bigger arts and crafts gal. i am always working on a project, and spend half my paychecks at hobby lobby and Michael's craft store. making jewelry, greeting cards, collages, drawing, scrap booking, etc -- i do it all :)

5. i'm a huge child abuse awareness advocate. i do everything i can in order to spread awareness. i feel strongly for helping abused children. check out some posts for more info: Support The Cause && Child Abuse Awareness-- Be Their Voice xx

6. i document every thing. i have a daily journal where i document things that gave me a big emotional impact--whether happy, sad, shocked, etc i document all the opportunities i have had--jobs, modeling gigs, etc. i'm currently writing a post on my central command binder i document all of my favorite sayings and quotes in a separate binder i made myself. && i would love to bury a time capsule one day :]

7. I'm a germophobe, and an insane clean freak.i Lysol and febreeze everything in my house, as i am obsessed with smelling good personally as well as my apartment & car smelling fresh too. I damn near have OCD with organizing and cleaning things/rooms

8. my sister is the most amazing gift God has blessed me with. ive gotten soo much closer to my family this past year, and for that i am forever grateful. ♥

9. my digital camera goes everywhere with me. since i've gotten an iPhone from work, i have just used that as its pictures are insanely perfect. Say Cheese. ツ

10. i hate waiting but hate being rushed even more. This is especially so when I am getting ready for the day in the mornings. I have a routine and have to do exactly it otherwise I go crazy!

11. everyone tells me im the funniest person they've ever met. i love to laugh but enjoy making others laugh even more. most of the time i'm being a sarcastic asshole, and therefore you should never take what i say to heart. ;]

Answer the following 11 questions:

What motivated you to start your blog?
i consider blogging as my therapy. ive been a writer since as long as i can remember. In my preteen days, writing with my feather pink pens and gel pens on colored paper and the little locks they came with that i knew no one would ever be able to pick unless they had my key. ;) i love to connect with other bloggers who may be going through similar situations as i am. it is awesome to see what the blogging world has developed into over the years-- and i have become more connected with people here than in my real life. How sad is that LOL

What is your most beloved beauty product you can't live without?
i have so many i cannot live without. I desperately need cover up/foundation, my preferred drug store mascara, and some sort of lip wear-- whether it be chap stick or lip gloss! Those are my top three for sure!

What is your favorite nail color?
 
there are so many factors that can go into play. Factors such as the season, weather, holidays, outfits i plan on wearing, current trends, etc. my absolute go to nail color when in doubt is always black or french manicure. they are both neutrals and match any thing and every thing. for work, i wear a lot of black.

Not to mention black is such a good platform to add any type of pattern you wish, i think so at least. i love adding leopard prints with my tans once i want some change, or i will ad silver sparkle lines horizontally, etc 
 
Favorite type of music?
Hiphop,Rap, Pop, Rock -- I listen to it all. Lately I have been turned onto an Opera Rock and you would not think the two would sound good together but it is amazingly awesome to hear how they intertwine into awesome sounds!

Lipstick or Lipgloss?
Recently i began getting into matte lip sticks. My current favorites are the Maybelline SuperStay 14hour matte lipstick my shade is Beige Foregood. They stay on all day with out having to reapply. There are a great variety of different shades surely able to match any outfit. Also, I am obsessed with having to have some thing on my lips at all times otherwise i feel they are drying out or some thing lol So when chap stick isn't around, these matte lipsticks do the job!

The other lip product i am loving right now is the Revlon Color Burst Lip in Creme Brulee for a good shimmer shade.


Favorite hobby?
Shopping! lol Aside from shopping, I love to do arts and crafts. As mentioned above, I do it all from making jewelry, greeting cards, collages, drawing, all the way to scrap booking, etc --- i absolutely love it. I am left-handed though so I am sure that is my excuse for being so creative!


What is your guilty pleasure show to watch?

Game of Thrones for sure! I will definitely admit I would NEVER have chosen to watch this show on my own. This show is such a man, geeky, sci-fi, show that I so am not usually into. However after being FORCED to watch a few episodes, i got into it SO much and am now OBSESSED! It has all the drama us girly sappy soap operas have-- just intertwined with some bad ass females who kick ass!

I absolutely love this show, and am ecstatic about the start of Season Four starting in just one more month!!

If you could travel anywhere, where would it be?
My home land of Puerto Rico! One, to get away from this awful weather Chicago has been having. 2 To visit all of my family since the majority of them all reside there. 3. To soak my toes in the sand of some of the most beautiful beaches in the world!

Favorite accessory/piece?
Jewelry!! You can legit make or break an outfit with jewelry. You can up do it to some thing very formal and classy, or bum it down to casual and chic.Whether it is one piece or several pieces of jewelery, adding jewelery to your wardrobe is something that can easily elevate you to the next level of style and make you feel better about the way you look.

The jewelery pieces that you select to go with an outfit can either compliment it, or take away from it drastically. It is important to choose each piece carefully so that you make the best impression.


Best part of blogging?
Finding inspiration. I am always reading numerous other blogs and I find inspiration all over the place. i find it in every aspect of my life -- beauty, fashion, lifestyle, children, school, work, etc. i love having my words appreciated as well.

i have always had a lot to say && now i finally have an audience who CHOOSES to read. Also I love to connect with others who have the same interest and lives as I do!

Any pets?
I do not own any pets at the moment, as they ar3e not allowed where i am currently living. However I absolutely LOVE cats! I am definitely a car person. I have had a couple cats in my life, but I had to leave each of them with my then roommates at the time as my new apartments did not allow any pets. :( I am still trying to convince a certain someone* to get me a kitty for my birthday which is coming up in which i would name him or her "Zazzles" :)



11 questions from Andrea at PHDFashionista.com 

1. Do you have any tattoos or piercings? If so, how many and what kind?
I have no tattoos and two piercings-- my ears and belly button! I am not really into tattoos. Tattoos are tricky however I have always told myself pick something -- wait six months and if i still love and want it -- then go for it! && as of yet, i have not been able to like anything for longer than six months ha!

2. What is one thing that you absolutely could not live one day without?
my cellphone. lol isn't that so sad? Also, chap stick or a lip product in general.

3. If you could choose any place in the world to live where would you choose?
I would chose to live in Puerto Rico. Puerto Rico is a commonwealth of the USA so we are essentially 'under the same roof' as far as order and protection go. However I will get the beautiful scenery and get to be around my family and in my native land as well. What's better than that?

4. If you won a $50,000 shopping trip to any store where would you go?

Victoria's Secret!! VS has every different type of clothing I can want as far as bras and panties to sweats to regular. The company sells lingerie, womenswear, and beauty products though we all know it is best known for its UH-MAY-ZING bras and panties!! What i like most about VS is that it is all this sexiness packaged in a tasteful, glamorous way-- topped with sparkles, sequence, bolb colors, and leopard print!! [what more can a girl ask for?]


5. Where is your favorite place to vacation and why?
Puerto Rico-- the scenery. It is pretty self explanatory! lol

6. Who is your all time favorite designer?

Louis Vuitton has never gone wrong. I also love Dior and Coco Chanel.

7. If you had to choose between losing your entire makeup collection or losing your entire wardrobe, which would you choose?

I have had to deal with losing both last year. January 2013 my roommate stole & sold all of my things. The only thing she left behind were coat hangers and furniture. My jewelry, clothes, makeup, hair products, etc were all stolen. I later found out she was a hardcore alcohol & drug addict and made $3k off my stuff at a few different pawn shops. I was able to retrieve about 20% of my stuff back. Plus, when she got arrested, her car was left in my driveway so I was able to sell that for $2500, so I essentially didn't luck out entirely but it did not replace the sentimental items && that's what hurts the most.

However if this did not happen to me, I would choose my make up collection because more than half of it is drug store make up so it would not be too expensive to replace.

8. What meal could you eat everyday for the rest of your life?

Reese's Peanut Butter Cups? lol jk I can live off of any type of meat and pasta.


9. If you had to choose one pair of shoes to wear with every outfit forever what shoes would you choose?

This is very tough as where I live, the seasons are so dramatically different. So for Winter, I would choose my black knee high leather boots. They literally match every single Winter outfit I wear.

For Summer I would choose my wedges as they match every single outfit I wear. I am sure a lot of girls would choose flats but wedges feel like flats to me. I have always been comfortable wearing high heels for hours on end.

I like to say 'my feet were made for heels" ;-)

10. If you could trade places with one person for a day, who would it be?

This is a tough one. I think celebrity-wise, I would like to trade places with Demi Lovato. If I could sing like her, be able to judge/give my opinion on the X Factor, and be looked at as such a strong role model-- i would be so self-fullfilled and in pure bliss. Demi Lovato is a big advocate for feeling that responsibility to turn her life around and set a good example for those who want to be like her.

11. If you could suddenly turn invisible, what is the first thing you would do?
I would get revenge on my few enemies, I would pull pranks ALL day, I would stalk some celebrities, and i would go to the movies and watch movies for free ;) I would gather as much money as possible--probably rob a bank LOL

My nominees :)
9. Faye
11.Another Beautiful Thing

My Questions:
1. What is the best and worst thing about blogging/having a blog?
2. what is your most favorite blog post you have ever written?
3. how did you pick you blog name?
4. what is your most prized posession?
5. what is your favorite outfit you have?
6. what fashion trend can you not stand?
7. what are three things you cannot live without?
8. what is your dream job?
9. what is one of your best talents?
10. if you won a million dollars, what would you spend it on?
11. what do you think about the blogging community, your favorite and least favorite things about it?


                                    

Thank you all so much for reading and taking the time out of your lives to check my blog out. I sincerely put so much effort and time into making posts as enjoyable for you to read as they are for me to write. I appreciate each and every one of you on more levels than you know!

Rica x0x

Sunday, January 12, 2014

making choices

choices.

most people today do not realize just how important making choices in life is. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you make a decision. maybe you won't know for twenty years, or maybe you find out in a few seconds.. && sometimes you'll never ever be able to trace it to its source when other times it'll be right in front of your face. in most cases, you only get one chance to play it out. because after all, your fate is what you create. i know i know, that is debatable.


Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved... so many people waste their lives in regret and i just think it's such a waste of life, a waste of valuable time others would give a million dollars for..




i know i talk about life being wasted, while i turn around and do it. but it's like i want to achieve perfection and try to avoid bad things, but there’s a devil in everyone.. we can't all be the way we want to be. we can't be [the person we preach to be entirely... and most of all, i can't please anyone, nor do i try anymore.


i became this way because of trust.

yep. trust- the word is just plain half ignorance applied to the concept that nobody can use it correctly, and in fact often abused. i can't do anything when my back is turned, i am blind. i am afraid of myself and every human being that has the power in their hands to deceive me.

&& what many don't know is it corrupts my mind, and way of thinking. that's where i start to dig, i dig myself a hole, a hole that i don't plan on ever getting out of.. what is this hole ?

this hole is wisdom. 

For everyone that lies or turns their back on me, I become wise and more observant. you make me stronger. yep. put that in your pipe and smoke it ;)




all jokes aside, let's face it-- i don’t get the option of picking or choosing when ill excite you, bore you or piss you off.

i’m a chick to wrapped up in her own business to notice your jealousy most of the time, and when i do, i become so consumed in what's wrong with you that i don't even know what to start to say to you. i can't help that i got that attitude where if I don’t mean shit to you, then you don’t mean shit to me, its not being bitchy -- its being wise, don't get it twisted.

lesson to learn: pretty faces can be monsters in masks. i can either be the cancer or the light of your life.



you decide <3

Rica -x0x-


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